About Panthera Pardus
About the blog:
I am very much A Newbie; and I Ramble.
I originally called myself that because I was learning about BDSM and felt overwhelmed, but in a good way. There was so much to learn! I still call myself that because I’m realizing that no matter how much I know, there will always be more to learn, more people to meet, and new experiences to have. I’m a curious cat and love to learn.
I call my writings ramblings because I’ve always done so. I don’t call them that in an insulting manner, but simply as a description. I tend to ramble.
Rambling takes me places, so I don’t see myself changing anytime soon.
About Me:
I am a fat (Curvaceous Dee has helped give me the cojones to use the word ‘fat’ and be okay with it. She’s also the reason I started blogging. Blame her.), mid-thirties, bisexual, kinky woman. I am a gamer geek, a sci-fi geek…actually, an all-around geek, if you must know. I’m a relative latecomer to the BDSM scene, but I’m trying to make up for lost time.
I have found that I like pain…I mean, really enjoy it. I like being flogged (the stingier the better). I like being scratched. I really like being bitten. I have a feeling I’d like a singletail, but haven’t yet had the opportunity… I’m a sensation junkie.
On the flip side: I like to inflict pain. I love wrapping my arms around a willing victim and sinking my teeth into a shoulder, back, or arm; hearing the sounds they make and feeling them writhe, and feeling their flesh between my teeth or under my nails. I like to hear someone gasp or moan or growl because of what I’m doing to them. I’m also a reaction junkie.
On the D/s spectrum…I can be submissive for a period of time, but I’m not a submissive. I can be dominant, but I’m not a dominant. On the supposed femme/butch spectrum (it’s not really a spectrum, but people tend to see it that way), I’m somewhere right in the middle.
On the ‘attracted to’ spectrum: it depends on my mood. I like males in a primal, needful way and females in a more aesthtetic sense. Of course, that changes depending on mood and company. I tend to prefer males to be stronger and more forceful and females to be more submissive, but that also is mood-dependent.
Tentatively, I’m often in more of a submissive/bottoming mood.
